I hate sleep

In many ways I hate sleep.

Or rather, I hate my relationship with sleep. I desperately wanted to sleep last night, I went to bed at a reasonable hour, I took my meds, I took my sleeping pills and I didn't sleep. All night. I manged a couple of hours of sleep at like 830-9am or so. Boo. Now I am exhausted and all I want to do is sleep but I know that if I go to bed early that I will be awake at like 3am and not able to sleep. Again.

I forgot to call the sleep study people because I was too bloody out of it.