Sunday, March 23, 2014


Really? Cause multiple doctors appointments while my parents are out of town aren't enough?

Saturday I had a flat tire, A's birthday party at chuck e cheese and a freaking ticket for expired tags
Sunday I took my parents to the airport at 4am, had game canceled, took the dog with me while I went to get my oil changed to find out that both freaking fog lights are out and can't be replaced because they are corroded and then got pulled over AGAIN for the tags and I can't freaking get deqed until tuesday. And my pizza was late so I was freaking hungry and I hurt all over and am sweating and hot and this damn stress isnt helping.

Oh and monday I have 10am cosmos watching with B, 12am pick up A, 1pm watch my sisters kids M and H, take care of the dogs by myself, deposit the money to cover the freaking ticket and like not explode.
Tuesday I have a 10am rheumy appointment, 12am pick up A, get deq done in sherwood, go to the dmv, get my stuff together for LARP next weekend so that wends and thurs I can get the things I am missing. I think I am missing a set of petticoats and need a new top for the character. Oh and friday I have a 1030am endocrinology appointment and have to pick up people for LARP and find the new campsite in a reasonable time.

And I have to get my meds tomorrow because I am out of a bunch of them and keep forgetting to refill them which I did today and they are ready at rite aid. oh and I am not on the forums for LARP yet for some reason so I can't get the bloody directions for LARP so I don't know where I am going and I am so freaking stressed. And I need to send in that damn ticket too before I leave for LARP that I am afraid my everything is going to flare up because it's bad already and I have to deal with it alone and it's getting tough.

I am scared what the rheumy will say and the endo will say and I need to call the OHSU echo labs to get my holter monitor set up and I don't even know the number for them so I have to call the main desk and I hate talking on the phone because I get all nervous and I don't know how I am going to deal with the dogs for the week on top of all this shit and I am shaking, sweating, and despite trying desperately to destress and self care all afternoon I feel worse than I did when I got up.

I really fucking need a friend that can be here for me and K is too busy for me and I haven't seen the other K in like a month and without game today the only contact I have really is A and her mom L and I just. UGH. I am either going to pull through this by some freaking miracle or going to crash and burn. Sorry this is so disorganized and messed up I am a freaking basket case right now. Not having my muscle spasm meds isn't helping because my muscles are twitching like mad and the stress is just making it worse.

I am going to go back to watching criminal minds now and ignore the world again.

1 comment:

  1. Yikes, remember to breathe!

    e-hugs, Kat

    p.s. If you need to talk to someone, rant, vent or whatever, you know where to find me :)